If I could only pluck my little eyes out and show you how I see you, you’d be amazed. I know you don’t always think I love you, or only want you, but you’re seriously all I want. You complete me, Aaron. You make me bad days better. You make me smile, and laugh and you just.. Make sense to me.

It sucks thinking about you having sex with her, or holding her or talking to her. But that’s something I have to forgive you for because I’d rather have you in my life than hold that stupid grudge on you. We weren’t together, we still aren’t. But I know sometime soon we will be.

When you told me you wanted to be with me again, I got so happy. I understand where you’re coming from and that you want friend time still. I do too, and we’ll both get it. I just want to be able to call you mine. Whenever I talk about you I always call you my boyfriend, because I don’t really consider you an ex.

You’re still the one. You’ll always be the one. We’re in this together, okay? And we’re going to go really far I promise. I love you

I love having you back in my life. I really really do. I even love fighting with you. Because it shows that we care about each other. I know we’re going to be together forever. You’re the one I want to be with. The one I want to spend my entire life with. People alway say you’re just using me, but I feel in my heart that you do love me.

I can’t wait until you ask me to be your girlfriend again. I’ve been waiting for four months for this to happen.

It’s crazy how much I didn’t like this girl for no reason at all. I guess besides my jealousy issues that she got to see Aaron all the time and her best friend was dating him. But she’s actually an awesome girl, and her and I get along okay. I like being friends with everyone. I love getting to know people and being nice.

Life is too short to be mean.

Aaron Lee Story, if only you understood just an ounce of how I felt about you. If only you could see what I see. I’m in love with you. Still. After four months of you dragging me along I still want to make it work. I want you to go back to how you were. Yeah, I don’t want to spend everyday together. But I want you to randomly hug me, or kiss me, or send me sweet texts that make me tear up. You were my definition of what I wanted in life.. I just wanted to be with you forever.

I don’t know why I messed up and hurt you. I’ve moved past that though and I don’t think you have. When you love someone you forgive them for their mistakes. There’s things you’ve done to me and I don’t even bring that up. Because I’d rather have a life with you, and I know that bringing old skeletons out of the closet doesn’t help.

I’ve changed. And I know I’ve changed. Whether you see it or not. I’m trying to give you your space and not get mad at you for the dumbest, smallest things. And trust me, I’ve succeeded. The old me would have got mad at you for following a girl on twitter. I don’t do that anymore.

I pretty much accepted that you don’t love me. Even when you tell me I don’t feel like its true. You know I don’t believe you when you tell me that and you still don’t try to prove it to me. I guess you could handle losing me. You might be able to handle that, but I don’t know if I can. I mean, I did once. And if I had to I could do it again. But life is better with you by my side.

I love you. I love you. I love you. Come back to me please. Tell me how you feel. Show me you love me. Make me your girlfriend. Just.. something to show me that you’re here because you want to be. Whenever we’re with eachother I always feel so bad. I can tell you don’t want to be there and I feel guilty for forcing you to see me.

I wish you’d ask to see me or surprise me. I’ll never hurt you again, I promise. If you truly loved me you’d forgive me. You know I’m sorry. And you know I love you. I love you so much. Come back around please..

I hate when girls play the pity party for themselves. Yes, I know I do this too. But I also do know that half the problems I had in my relationship were because of me. I wasn’t too controlling, or demanding. But I did hurt him. I like to think I deserve better, but in my heart I know he does. I hate when girls say all guys are bad guys. That’s not true. It may seem that way because you get screwed over all the time. But maybe you should turn around and look in the mirror.

No guys wants someone that’s suffocating, that’s jealous, that controls him. They want someone who has a life that doesn’t just evolve around their relationship. I know I’ve made my share of mistakes, but I’ve also learned a lot.

Don’t throw a pity party for yourself and say you didn’t do anything wrong blah blah blah.

I’m laying here thinking about my entire life right now. My past, my present, and my future. I’m not really sure what my future has in store for me, and I’m not really willing to plan it out either. What’s the point in planning things? I feel like anytime I make plans they always get ruined, so why not just go with the flow? Yeah, I’m not in school and I honestly do want to be. Not because I’m like the rest of society and think I “need” to or I’m going to have a crappy life.

But because I really do want to be a teacher. I love kids. I love talking to them. I love helping them. I love being around them. I think being a teacher you change lives. Not only do you teach them their everyday skills, but you have the opportunity to talk to them, and help them with any home problems they might be having.

I know that whenever I’m a teacher I’ll never be strict.. I’ll probably never enforce anything at all. But I do know that I want to create an environment where my students feel safe. Where they know that there is a loving woman standing in front of them daily and that’d she’d do anything for them.

I remember when I was little I always used to lay in bed and think about being a teacher and what my classroom would look like. I wish I didn’t have to go to school to become a teacher. I guess I need to definitely get my butt back in school this fall.

I tried really hard and it’s such a heart breaking feeling knowing it wasn’t enough. I just want us to go back to how we were, you know. You say you love me, but I don’t feel like you do. I just know how you acted towards me before and how I NEVER had a doubt that you loved me. It’s crazy. I could see myself marrying you. Everything makes perfect sense when it’s with you.

I don’t want to find anyone else but there are guys out there that are willing to show me I deserve something good. I guess I messed this relationship up so much there’s no hope for our future. I’m really sorry. I wish I could go back in time and fix things. We had something so perfect. Everything reminds me of you.

Maybe there’s a reason everyone tells me I should move on? I think everyone but me is over our relationship. Even you. I never listen to what people say, but no one thinks we belong together anymore. I always feel like people know something I don’t. Like, you’ve done something bad to be and that’s why they don’t want us together. Because as far as I’m concerned you’re perfect.

Sure, you made mistakes and have hurt me. But I’ve done that same to you. I’ll always, always love you and I’ll always think you’re the one that got away. But it’s time for me to put you in the past. Who knows. Maybe someday you’ll want me back and I’ll already be happy with someone else who took the opportunity to treat me good. And who know. That day might be really soon.

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yes

I have a feeling this is about to be a really lonely summer.